The Paths of Faith and Despair

Sometimes I long to spread my wings and ride the restless breeze,

Circle distant snow-bound peaks and chase the rolling seas.

But I know such wondrous joys could never strike as true

As the charge that rips through me just thinking now of you.

 

Long I’ve wished to pierce the night and soar among the stars,

Gaze within their chill shadows, and study all their scars.

It burns my heart to realize I’ll never walk such shores, 

But I’d forsake all such dreams to hold you just once more.

 

Yours is the fire that drives my heart, 

And the yearnings that tear me apart.

Yours is the love I had to find. 

Its nightmares echo through my mind.

Yours is the soul made for my own, 

The deepest heartache I’ve ever known.

Yours is the loss I could not bear, 

A truth I didn’t learn ‘till it was there.

 

Where did you go? What did I do?

How could you leave without one clue?

Why would anyone just disappear?   

How can I live without you near?

 

Sometimes I long to hide myself on some secluded strand,

Stretch my toes within the surf and watch time play its hand.

But I’ll never take that rest until my search is through.

No peaks, seas or stellar breeze will keep me away from you.

 

Yours is the fire that drives my heart, 

With demands that tear me apart.

Yours is the love I just had to find.

Its nightmares echo through my mind.

Yours is the soul made for my own, 

The deepest heartache I’ve ever known.

Yours is the loss I could not bear, 

A fact that’s left me deep in despair.

 

Some people ask me why I bother. 

They say she’s gone; I should find another. 

But I’ve just got to see this through.

There’s really nothing else I can do. 

Each day that passes makes me ponder 

If love makes the heart grow fonder

Or does it burn out through the years? 

Is that what my heart truly fears?

 

I walk the paths of faith and despair, 

Each step a thread weaving a prayer.

I’ll never arrive until I get there, 

On these paths of faith and despair.

-- Words and music copyright February 2015, Kirby Lee Davis